Feelin blue~

I’m so damn tired nowadays. I miss the days in army when I can just “stone” for very long. It’s a term often used in army to describe someone staring into blank space. It feels rather good. Like the time has stopped and your mind stops thinking. It’s probably the only thing I missed in army. You don’t have many things to worry about.

Growing up sucks, ain’t it? Worrying about this and that. Missed my weekends when I don’t have to work. I also miss the carefree life when I was young. Played soccer everyday after school~ which led to me staying back in Secondary 3~ ahem. ANYWAY, yah I missed that life.

A girl once told me something like she would definitely choose someone who studies hard. Some guys might go “ohhh…. bitch~~” But there’s some rationale in it. She made me realize every thing we do not only affects ourselves, but our family too. I realized that if I didn’t work hard enough, my family’s going to suffer. While teachers always tell us it’s OUR own future. It’s actually a lot more than that yah.