Thinkin, thinkin, thinkin...

You know how sometimes you wish people would think like you do? Gosh, I think of that all the time. That’s why I’m often disappointed with people. One of them is probably how people apprehend love.

It’s disheartening when people tell you they won’t accept people who are like this or like that, or only accept people with certain qualities. Sure, I have my list of criteria too. Long coloured hair (I think people look better with coloured hair), pretty face, tall, slim. Likes animals, especially dogs. Can cook (I’m not looking for a maid), do housework (seriously not looking for a maid =x). Must be filial, mature, non-smoker and loves the people I love (junior included).

But it seriously doesn’t matter when you really like someone right. Someone once asked me. “So would you like a fat and ugly girl?”
Well, not at first sight of course. But I wouldn’t rule out that possibility. Love could grow. It is something unexplainable. It’s not even what’s inside of her that’s important. It’s what your heart feels. If you ask if it’s my choice to like someone, I’d say no. Because a choice is something you choose. It’s something my heart chose, and I cannot deny it. It may probably sound stupid to you if you don’t feel like I do, eh?

Feelin blue~

I’m so damn tired nowadays. I miss the days in army when I can just “stone” for very long. It’s a term often used in army to describe someone staring into blank space. It feels rather good. Like the time has stopped and your mind stops thinking. It’s probably the only thing I missed in army. You don’t have many things to worry about.

Growing up sucks, ain’t it? Worrying about this and that. Missed my weekends when I don’t have to work. I also miss the carefree life when I was young. Played soccer everyday after school~ which led to me staying back in Secondary 3~ ahem. ANYWAY, yah I missed that life.

A girl once told me something like she would definitely choose someone who studies hard. Some guys might go “ohhh…. bitch~~” But there’s some rationale in it. She made me realize every thing we do not only affects ourselves, but our family too. I realized that if I didn’t work hard enough, my family’s going to suffer. While teachers always tell us it’s OUR own future. It’s actually a lot more than that yah.